I Don't Have Fears

I don't have fears. Not because they don't exist or because I push them away, but because my thoughts are filled with love, grace, and gratitude.

 Fear comes with events, memories, beliefs, and actions. They visit from time to time, but not today.

Today, I choose love, and love is far removed from fear. Love is faith's neighbor, and they reside on the upper side.

I have no interest in the south side today. I may go there tomorrow or in a few days, but not today.

Today, I open my eyes and see my beautiful family. I get up and feel all my fingers. I raise the curtain and gaze out the window, watching the birds fly, neighbors leave for work, and the white trails in the sky left by airplanes.

Today, I wash my face and discover a new pimple on the right side of my mouth. I smile. I brush my teeth and tongue, dry my face and hands, and I look happy.

Today, I take my child to school. I hug her and watch her walk through the gate toward her friends, feeling blissful. I drive home and park in front of the house, noticing the cracks in the beams, the peeling paint on the walls, and the broken pipe running down the side. I feel grateful.

Today, I take a shower. I relish the warmth of the water and enjoy its pressure. I use both bar and liquid soaps, exfoliating my legs and the rest of my body. I wash my hair, enjoying the scent of the shampoo. I reach for the towel, which is not be warm, but its dryness comforts me. I feel joy.

Today, I blow dry my hair and add hair oil since I skipped the conditioner. I watch as my hair straightens just the way I want. I feel flirty.

Today, I make myself coffee, weighing the coffee grounds and mixing in a little brown sugar. I make two trips to the refrigerator to fill the coffee maker with six cups of water. I feel abundant.

Today, I make scrambled eggs—my favorite. I heat the pan, add some butter, scramble the eggs, and toss them in the pan. I use a spatula to pull the edges to the center, allowing the uncooked parts to flow underneath. I repeat this and flip the eggs a few times before turning off the heat. I feel proud.

Today, I kiss my husband as he leaves for work. We kiss again, and he hugs me tightly. We hold each other for a few seconds. I feel blessed.

Today, I open my computer—the rose gold MacBook I bought when my old one broke. I feel privileged. I check my emails and notice a reply from an old client. I smirk as I read her email, catching up on her life. I rejoice.

Today I meet a few clients. One is learning to accept their past and love who they are, while the other recently figured out what they don't want in a career and is writing a list of their non-negotiable contracts. I feel insightful.

Today I attend an online meeting. I meet new people and learn about women entrepreneurs who meet in person in Southern California. I feel inspired.

Today I post about my podcast episode on friendships. I call my twin sister. We talk about our experience with making friends as immigrants. I feel understood.

Today my husband makes dinner. We sit around the table and share our highlights and disappointments of the day. I feel loved.

Today, I don't have fears, and that's okay. Let's normalize days when we don't feel them. Let's celebrate the days we feel rich, fulfilled, adored, and enchanted. Let's acknowledge that some days we feel lucky to be here, privileged to be alive, and honored to have come this far.

By doing this, we also accept when the opposite is true—when we visit the south side (a.k.a. low frequency), when we don't see the sunshine, or when we don't feel grateful, joyous, or blessed. When the rain feels endless and the pain is unbearable.

Today, I don't have fears, so I smile and gaze at the clouds and the moon before going to bed. I surrender to the magic and allow my heart to be calm and content at the sight of my hair, my nails, my husband's eyes, my child's face, and everything else I observe today.

Now it's your turn.

Can YOU imagine a day when YOU don't have fears? Can you recall a TODAY when you felt blissful and blessed for everything that happened?

Tell me about today. Do you have any fears?